ANOTHER JOURNAL ENTRY
When I started out on this Blog Space, I thought I would be sharing with you the facets of life. As simple as they can be, in the simplest way I could ever think about, for a five-minutes-at-most kind of read. Perhaps throw in a life experience here there like I do with #DailyVibes. (Check out my Socials to see what this is about). I never really thought it would be a space where I would be teaching the Word of GOD, with references to Bible Verses. Remembering how I have always been away from the idea of ever becoming a Pastor and the Ministries in them. *Let us laugh together…*
Every time I pray over the next Blog, I always hear HIM telling me to teach on a specific Word. I always find myself having a verse or a whole portion of Scripture that HE pours into my heart to speak about, one verse after another. And because I am me, I find myself looking for the simplest shortest ways to interpret them, but I always find so much poured into my spirit, that I cannot help it but type it all. And because “Disobedience Incognito” is not our portion anymore, we obey.
I must be honest that the “Word-Teaching-Blogs” take up so much of my energy, but we must be emptied to be refilled, right? And the best part is, I end up learning so much. Right now, I honestly do not know the direction this one will take. My initial intention is to have it short, first of all, and to just come in to check up on you and encourage you in the space that I am feeling in right now. Let’s see where this one goes today.
We are living in such peculiar days. We have realized that at one time, we could be certain about the plans that we have set out for the week or month, or however far it can go, then wake up one day to realize that they will not materialize and maybe never come together by whatever effort we put in. We have realized that life can change at the slight snap of a finger. Today we are living comfortable lives, tomorrow we are deep in trouble, trouble that we never saw or thought coming. We have realized who and what is important to us. We have realized the importance of meeting up with our loved ones as often as we can, by going for months without hugging them. Not out of choice, matter of fact we are in the same country. But you move to them and you easily get arrested, for going to see your loved ones. You move to them, you risk their lives with a virus that we thought could never find us. One that we had brushed off as the “come-will-go.” How long afterwards now?
We have realized that we have not been using technology well enough; that our loved ones can watch us getting married through a gadget. *sigh* And they can even dress up to the virtual. Hahaha!! Now I can laugh. We have realized what is so much within us that makes us who we are. We have discovered that there are things that we can actually do that we had never known or that we had ignored. Some have opened up and are doing businesses and jobs they never saw themselves in. Strategies to keep organizations and families going have been put into place. Strategies no one ever thought to come up with all their lives. So much we have realized, and albeit in such adversity, my prayer is that we shall keep the good lessons going on even when we feel that the threat is not as bad as it started. I pray that we shall carry on with what we have learnt, and constantly want to learn even more, even in situations where the pressure is not as intense. I pray that the closeness we have achieved to GOD will only get closer. That the much we have prayed will get more.
For me, I know there are parts of my hands that weren’t washed well. I finally found the use of the sanitizer that I had carried around in my handbag for years. Now I can’t stay with the same quantity for as long. It is hilarious. My Make-Up bag must be wondering why the lip colors have lasted longer than usual and they have not met a new one. Main reason being that the mask has no mercy on these beauty colors we add to our faces. My pajamas must be wondering why they are in water more often, and some of my daily clothes are feeling abandoned to some extent. I never thought for a minute that life would change this much. I never thought I would be waiting for my students in a virtual room and yet so much more. But GOD is so faithful and HE has helped me see the great things that are happening in this season; in the space of “Finding The Good Lesson.” HE indeed is a Good Good FATHER.
If there was a time I learnt how to keep my head above water, it was in this Season.” I was doing so badly at the beginning, I won’t lie. The feeling of drowning is so horrid, I couldn’t stay there anymore. Now, where we have come from is further than where we are going and for some reason, I would not ask for some events to happen any different. Of course, I wouldn’t wish for the Virus to be here and all the damage it has caused and lives it has taken and affected adversely. I just wouldn’t take back the intensity of which the lessons came with. I wouldn’t take the opportunity to redo some events in my life any differently.
I have learnt to fully depend on GOD and I have seen HIM come through in such mighty ways. I have come to acknowledge HIS Majesty in its entirety. I have acknowledged that everything is in HIS Hands and under HIS Jurisdiction. I have learnt to run when HE tells me to go and when HE says jump, I ask HIM to help me jump higher than I had planned to. I have obeyed, I have thrown out caution and the things that kept me from working for HIM out of my window and I am looking for those sneaky ones that have a way of hiding in hidden places in the house. I have accepted that I am a work in progress and everything will not immediately fall into place. But for them to start falling into place, I have to set a few things into motion. The Bible reminds me that I am a vessel for GOD’s work. HE is a Spirit and so HE will dwell in me and use my physical to manifest HIM. But only, if I am willing.
That’s me and yet so much that I am getting changed for. I was down for a minute and I did not want to accept the situation as it was. Now, I have matured enough to learn to accept seasons as they land. That I may never be able to send them back or get my way around them, but walk right through them. That some Mountains are for climbing and others for bringing down to clear a path. I have re-learnt that falling down is allowed but staying there is the beginning of our problems.
Where are you right now in this season? Are you doing all you can to put your head above the water? Are you feeling tired of the swim and the water carrying you away from your intended direction, but still moving? Are you still on your knees for the Nations? Are you still hopeful for things to turn around for your good? Are you walking in the courage of GOD? Are you seeking GOD more? Truth is, life will throw your way impossible situations, and they do not stop coming your way. You will get beaten down all the time. My Mum always reminds us that in this World, there will never be any rest. You sleep off the tire, you work again. You solve one issue, another one comes. You make money, you get a need for it and you have to keep working to get it. But even amidst all this trouble, we have a cushion in GOD. HE gives us a peace beyond our own understanding. HE gives us a comfort no one can ever offer. HE supplies our needs through the least expected and sometimes unknown ways. HE keeps us afloat and HE grants us the strength to keep moving; yes, Physically, Emotionally, Mentally and Spiritually.
Realise that we are not home yet until we get to Heaven. There will be trouble when you are in a foreign land. Sometimes you wish that you could go home, but GOD has a reason why you are alive at this point in time. HE has every perfect reason why HE hasn’t called you home yet. So, don’t try to quicken the process. Don’t look weary. I have learnt to never look like what I am going through. Because I am a good pretender? No! But because I have learnt that what I entertain will make itself comfortable in my home. I have accepted things as they are, I have learnt to feel the pain of whatever hits me. I have accepted what GOD throws my way. I have believed that it is for my good.
I would really love to hear what you are going through in this season. It’s okay to have a testimony and it’s also okay to have a defeat story. We all have different phases of seasons and we are in different seasons. There are those that were really flourishing before all this and now they aren’t. There are those that were doing really badly before this season and now they are flourishing. There are them that nothing has changed, there are them that things got better or worse from the previous. Wherever you are, GOD loves you, JESUS loves you. This is not the usual cliché. The love in GOD is deep and real and HE has a plan over your life that you will never fathom in full. Don’t sit back to compare yourself with others. You are unique. Don’t sit back to feel sorry for yourself. Rise up, pray and do something about your situation, when and where GOD directs you to. Don’t demean the people not as well advantaged as you are. Pray for them and help where you can. This is the time to realize your inner strengths, your heart to help, how much you can stretch and yet so much more. Don’t let the opportunity go to waste. Wake up every single day with zeal, pray in The HOLY SPIRIT, at all times and with all kinds of Prayers. Spend time in communion and devotion with GOD, always dwell in HIS Presence, learn and work as hard and as smart as you have never before.
If you have no clue how to find your Joy in CHRIST, how to totally throw all your cares to HIM and are also too sure if HE comes back for HIS Church right now you will be left behind… Or maybe you back slid and are here, maybe not even knowing why you opened this Blog; JESUS is knocking on the door to your heart and HE would love to be invited in. Salvation is here. Reach out to someone to lead you to CHRIST or find me. The provision for Direct Messaging me on my Socials is available and also on the last page of my site, there is a contact form. Do fill it in. If you wish to just talk and need a shoulder or someone to believe with you or walk with you, the same options are available to you. Reach out. Don’t suffer alone.
The agenda was kept to the end, mmmmh!! Hihi!! Must be what HE wanted me to do.
More of GOD’s Grace, Love and Light,
Lydia Ndwiga.
